HomeSickness!!

Hey all!

This entry of mine is specifically dedicated to NLU Jodhpur Class of 2013! It's been a long time that I wrote here, but today I just couldn't stop myself from writing. I am now doing corporate specialisation from GNLU Gandhinagar- and all I say is I Miss NLU Jodhpur.

GNLU did something that even NLUJ couldn't- it made me feel homesick in the very first week. Home, a place where I lived with my family and friends and enemies all together. Home, a place where we fought, we played, we ate together the 'ganga mess' food. Home, where when I cried, Nandini made sure that I end up calling 'Nandini is Awesome'.Home, where Pritha felt so homesick that we scolded her on such feeling. Home, where I didn't mind going four stories of stairs just to meet Sukanya! Daily to Annoy her!. Home, where Divya and Jayantika always were fun to talk. Home, where even after changing hostel friendships never changed. Home, where Ramu's music played so loud that it was heard even in mess! Home, where cooking was just done because it was fun! (Actually may be bcoz food was bad was better).  😜 Home where friendship was at thin thread with lots of knots. Home where fighting Junnu became a ritual to me! Home, where going home was boring but spending time at college was splendid idea. Home- a place where people made me independent enough to stand on my own! 

As I write this, my eyes are wet, my face is wet. I miss that walk from hostel to college and the unfairness of boys hostel being close to college. I miss those classes, those chairs where revolving was just too much fun! A way to distraction from lecture- but fun. I miss laughs and cries I had with you people! The class room 10 of the campus- a constant to our batch for five years. Surprisingly, I miss kant's tickling session- even if they made me angry, I laughed. I miss the bunking of lecture when we felt teacher is the most useless person present in our class, or just to time pass?

I miss the parties, the functions, the dandiya night and I miss the college events!

In short guys- I miss Home and I miss you Guys!! 💗💗 you all

Cheers to the batch of 2013- NLU Jodhpur! We were the best! 

Nikita

TRUST- the foundation step to FRIENDSHIP!!!!

The word 'trust' builds among the most common words like belief, faith etc.. For different people the word means different. It may take someone to build u trust easily and for other one it might be very difficult.

Sometimes, it is the binding relationship which forces you to trust the other, but mostly, it is the bond that creates the trust. 'Bond' and 'trust' are directly proportional to each other. As the bond increases, trust increases and vice versa.

In the last five years of college, I had varied kind of relationship with different people and today I have a very strong bond with some of them. This post is for those friends of mine whom I can never forget- whether they were my batch mates or my sweet juniors. I cannot resist myself to mention few them here, as they have truly found a place in my life.

Firstly, my biggest Enemy friend, Ramu- well what to say. As soon as I take this name, I am just reminded of the song ‘dushman na kare dost ne woh kaam kiya hai...’ but to be true, I had the most happening time of my life in these last two years. Yes, before that for three years, I didn’t pay much attention to her, as in even if she exists in the class, but the moment I shifted to this hostel, all I had was her beside me. So the bond with her is like the strongest! :D

Then, I have to mention Sukanya. ‘Friends forever’ surely applies here. From the very first semester till now, she has been the best friend to me. We have fought, gotten angry with each other (mostly her getting angry, as I definitely end up making more mistakes), laughed and danced together, and lots more. In these five years, I learnt what her friendship meant to me. Our bond, I can’t even imagine to define the limit of it, as its’ so high. 

 Aayush Juneja, the biggest enemy of my life, but with time, the best supporter to me. The only quote which can explain my trust on him is ‘A friend in need is a friend indeed’. Though he is sometimes, actually most of the time is very irritating but then, he is Aayush! He is the one who is always gonna be there for you. Though we fight with each other like cats and dogs- still I love the fact that we are still friends. :)

 Nandini, Pritha, Saumya and Sneha, well somehow, the relationship was binding in starting but then the ‘i’ got replaced with ‘o’ and it all just started growing and kept its pace evenly.

The most amazing was with Dubey, with the last four months we started talking and found out to be way to close and good friends that at least I ended up stating that why the hell was I ever on talking terms with her. But as we say, ‘it’s better to be late, then never’. In her I found myself to be confiding at the time when I couldn't trust on my own. Oh, I totally can't end her part until I mention, that she is the biggest fan of Shahrukh Khan- I know this can be controversial but then, I have only seen her!!! :D

Lastly, how can I even think of missing the seven girls of my floor, without whom I think, it would have been very difficult to adjust to the new hostel. With the entrance of Sonam, all the girls on my floor took a place in my daily life as if my they have been my own children. Neha, the super cute neighbour, Itisha, the tallest, sona mera sabse shaitaan, to Pranjal, the most studious and mysterious, Shriya the topper, to Apurva the singer; everyone had their own place, their own bond, their own relationship and the ever-growing trust.

I think with this I will end up this post. Ohh wait......Did I forgot someone?? Yes, the 7th girl.

I forgot to mention Garima- well, this girl is the craziest of the seven girls and you know why- because she loves Iss pyaar ko kya naam dun. If for instance, there would be an earthquake, and she is watching her serial- her dialogue would include cursing down the god because of whom she had to take the break from watching the serial! :D

So, you see, even though I trust so many people in this college, the trust level actually varies. And it’s true, I wanted to write on these amazing friends of mine but had to take something as the base, so started with the very concept of “TRUST”, which is the foundation to one’s friendship!! 

Although the post is about these people and friendship- I will say this is one of the Pandora Box chapter of my life- My life @ NLU, Jodhpur!

Nikita

ALONE!

It was raining outside,
I wanted to go out and play,
But couldn't move,
They sedated me.

The operation started and I felt sleepy,
And then the unimaginable happened,
I saw my hand been left,
I saw myself falling,
She didn't trust me,
She didn't ask me.

I jerked up from the sedation,
I could see what was happening,
I could feel the pain,
I wanted to shout,
But before i could they sedated me,
All over again.

This time I didn't see her,
I called her but she wasn't listening to me,
She didn't stop for me,
I ran and ran to reach her,
But failed miserably.

I saw the light shining in one corner,
I saw a hand out to hold me,
But I did the biggest mistake of life,
I didn't hold it,
I still wanted to call "Neha"
I still wanted her to listen to me once,
But she didn't ask me anything,
She just left me,
And I was all alone.

I suddenly felt a pain in body,
I opened my eyes,
Saw everyone tensed,
It was a nightmare,
I was terribly ill,
The atmosphere around me killed me more,

I fought with myself,
To be brave,
To be strong,
I went back to school,
And what I came across shocked me to the core.

The NIGHTMARE was a big REALITY before me!
She was not talking to me,
A day when I lost my best friend,
I felt myself falling off the cliff,
She didn't tell me the reason,
I found no reason,
No reason to be there any more.

That was the day when my trust on the very concept of friendship shattered as broken pieces of glass, any step forward where led me to bleed the tears out.
That was the day I stood ALL ALONE and ALONE I was to even think of anyone to be with me!!
That was the day I lost everything, that was day I wanted to get that one chance to know the truth, the truth which still is a mystery till now, I wanted to shout but no voice came out. I saw the darkness around me, but I couldn't run to the sunshine. I stood in the darkness All ALONE.... and today I know myself to be that Shining Star of my life, who doesn't believe anyone, but who hasn't left the warmth for people to believe her.
ALONE in the DARKNESS resulted me to fight against my biggest fear of facing up this world, but I did!!! I don't care today if one is proud of me or not, but I know I am!!!!


Nikita

The Unknown Feeling

Feelings, one word that creates drastic changes in your life. Last forty eight hours of my life, made me go through a number of them. And all I can say is this--


Felt like we challenged the time,
Yes we could do that,
We reached before the time,
Sitting in bus,
looking out the window, 
a smile formed,
like any notorious kid,
all i thought was a mischief.


So I went back to the best of my memories,
And I drifted to sleep,
found myself engrossed in dreams,
the beautiful dream of me with my family.
Moments later I woke up, made the hasty call,
I didn't know that I could even sleep in the bus!!,
I felt the urge to let him know that I am gonna be home,
Home, where I just wanted to rush,
For first time I wanted to just be there in my room.


Later at night,
Me being notorious, didn't let people sleep,
I talked to him,
And I talked to the best of people in my life,
Yes this was the feeling I went through,
Some moments ago, I wanted to leave NLU,
but being home, I just wanted to be with my friends,
Still I was happy, way too happy!!!


Next morning I woke up,
I helped my mother with her work,
I got ready, and yes I took time to get ready for first time!,
And the 5 hours went like 5 mins,
We had nothing to talk,
but we never sat quite,
I found myself at ease,
This was the much awaited break I needed,
was my sudden realization.


Back to home, was too good,
But now I know the reason, 
Its' the feelings in the heart,
The Unknown feelings which creates mood swings,
The Unknown feelings, I fell in love with,
The Unknown feelings........................ :D

I So WISH.........

On my birthday, people asked me... "hey sweetheart, what do u want?".... and I was blank. What to say what I really want; but then thought this is the place, where I share my weirdest of the thoughts. So why not my wish list.... Somethings I at least want to do once before I die...

1. I wanna ride bicycle (you know I always used to wonder, why can't I ride it... though I know the answer today but I still want to);
2. I fear of swimming, so just want to get over it;
3. I wanna Jump once, real jump, like people do;
4. I want to find and meet Sumi once;
5. I want to get back to my drawing back (in serious manner);
6. I want to own my dream house (which is mine and I can do whatever I want to);
7. I want to go to U.K. once (and if its' on my birthday... it will be awesome!!);
8. I want to achieve whatever my father wants me to but with that I want to achieve what I really want to do with my career...

So you see.... I don't want any material things, but all I want is to do what is impossible for me as per doctors/family/friends for that matter. But if you ask me what I want to have which can be bought then, I will say that I want wind chimes (I love them!!! Especially the one, which have very unique crystal and soft sound), snow globe, white board, punching bag, wristwatch, Jewel box, mugs, etc... One can always think of gifting me a good book (I will say with good font and good quality paper ;) ).

I think this is all I will say for today; for tomorrow never comes!!! :P

Nikita