ALONE!

It was raining outside,
I wanted to go out and play,
But couldn't move,
They sedated me.

The operation started and I felt sleepy,
And then the unimaginable happened,
I saw my hand been left,
I saw myself falling,
She didn't trust me,
She didn't ask me.

I jerked up from the sedation,
I could see what was happening,
I could feel the pain,
I wanted to shout,
But before i could they sedated me,
All over again.

This time I didn't see her,
I called her but she wasn't listening to me,
She didn't stop for me,
I ran and ran to reach her,
But failed miserably.

I saw the light shining in one corner,
I saw a hand out to hold me,
But I did the biggest mistake of life,
I didn't hold it,
I still wanted to call "Neha"
I still wanted her to listen to me once,
But she didn't ask me anything,
She just left me,
And I was all alone.

I suddenly felt a pain in body,
I opened my eyes,
Saw everyone tensed,
It was a nightmare,
I was terribly ill,
The atmosphere around me killed me more,

I fought with myself,
To be brave,
To be strong,
I went back to school,
And what I came across shocked me to the core.

The NIGHTMARE was a big REALITY before me!
She was not talking to me,
A day when I lost my best friend,
I felt myself falling off the cliff,
She didn't tell me the reason,
I found no reason,
No reason to be there any more.

That was the day when my trust on the very concept of friendship shattered as broken pieces of glass, any step forward where led me to bleed the tears out.
That was the day I stood ALL ALONE and ALONE I was to even think of anyone to be with me!!
That was the day I lost everything, that was day I wanted to get that one chance to know the truth, the truth which still is a mystery till now, I wanted to shout but no voice came out. I saw the darkness around me, but I couldn't run to the sunshine. I stood in the darkness All ALONE.... and today I know myself to be that Shining Star of my life, who doesn't believe anyone, but who hasn't left the warmth for people to believe her.
ALONE in the DARKNESS resulted me to fight against my biggest fear of facing up this world, but I did!!! I don't care today if one is proud of me or not, but I know I am!!!!


Nikita